Saturday 6th May 2017
Not much happens today, strangely. I'm in an odd mood, one of the times where I feel pretty disconnected from what's going on around me. It's weird, because while everything's going well, I'm in one of my frames of mind where I'm dissociating from the things around me. It feels a bit like being in a liminal space, but with less of the quirky feeling of being all alone in the world and more of a panic-attack feeling. My dreams feel so real that they make me feel sick in the daytime when I replay them. I spend the night curled up in my room, watching Skins and messaging my friends. Dissociation leaves me drained and tired and cranky, and I just want to sleep, but I can't for hours. When I do sleep, it's for my dreams to become even more vivid.