Friday, 20 February 2015

Liebster Award!

YAY! I've been nominated by the brilliant Rosie Evans for the Liebster Award! (Check out her blog now, it's awesome!)  Yay for Liebsters, yay for Rosie, and yay for being tagged in this!
Thank the person who nominated and link their blog!
Answer the questions given by the nominator
Nominate 11 other bloggers who have less than 200 followers and link them
Notify all the bloggers you nominate
Create 11 new questions for your nominees to answer
Places you want to travel to before you turn thirty?
Definitely Los Angeles-want to get there within the next year! New York, Australia, maybe Las Vegas just to see the rides, somewhere in the Caribbean, maybe Japan?  New Zealand, maybe, too! There's probably more but I'll probably remember them the second I've posted this.
What's your "I need to cry/feel emotional/wallow in self-pity" playlist?
So many I couldn't list them all but here's some of my favourites:
How To Save A Life by the Fray
Drawn Out by Citizen
The Scientist by Coldplay
Namesake by Anais Mitchell
You Could Be Happy by Snow Patrol
Run by Snow Patrol
Youth by Daughter
Still by Daughter
Tomorrow by Daughter
9 Crimes by Damien Rice
Cannonball by Damien Rice
Brothers On A Hotel Bed by Death Cab for Cutie
Passenger Seat by Death Cab for Cutie
What Sarah Said by Death Cab for Cutie
The District Sleeps Alone Tonight by the Postal Service
Yellow Shirt by the Icarus Account
Better Open The Door by Motion City Soundtrack
Even If It Kills Me by Motion City Soundtrack
Point of Extinction by Motion City Soundtrack
Modern Chemistry by Motion City Soundtrack
Needle In The Hay by Elliott Smith
Holocene by Bon Iver
Blindsided by Bon Iver
Just The Way I'm Feeling by Feeder
Hum by Tigers Jaw
Cha-Ching (Till We Grow Older) by Imagine Dragons
Teenage Rebellion by the Gaslight Anthem
Roslyn by Bon Iver and St. Vincent
Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls
Disorder by Joy Division
The  Nicest Thing by Kate Nash
Ribs by Lorde
All Too Well by Taylor Swift
Explain It To Me by Liz Phair
Cut by Plumb
Damaged by Plumb
Elevator Love Letter by Stars
For Blue Skies by Strays Don't Sleep
Marianne by Tori Amos
Wait by M83
Atlas Hands by Benjamin Francis Leftwich
Losing Your Memory by Ryan Star
Echo by Jason Walker
What colour do you paint your nails most often with?
Black, definitely.
Slumber party movie list?
Little Miss Sunshine
The Exorcist
Mean Girls
Basically a load of different horror, indie, comedies-depends who's at the sleepover!
Books you pretend to have read but really haven't?
Not that many, actually..I guess I reference 1984 a lot without having read it.
What colour would you say your eyes are when you stand under really bright light?
Difficult one-the first colours that come to mind are blue-green-grey but my eyes kind of change colour with different moods and lights-there's a load of different colours in them. (I'm making myself sound like a classic Mary-Sue.)
Three people whose wardrobe you would totally steal?
Emilie Autumn
Tavi Gevinson
Charli XCX
Feelings on David Bowie?
Awesome, cool, brilliant, more great adjectives.
A band you wish you could see live?
Motion City Soundtrack, Death Cab for Cutie, The Naked and Famous, Tigers Jaw, Imagine Dragons, Coldplay, Best Coast, Arctic Monkeys, probably way more...
For aesthetic purposes only, what era would you love to live in?
Probably the '90s, to be honest-riot grrl grunge stuff. :)
Probably most boring answer ever but I genuinely can't think of one. Seriously. Be cool to be in a music video or something... :)
I'll have a go at nominating:
And for the rest, anyone who wants to do it! Here are my questions:
1. Sunset or sunrise?
2. What is the last song you downloaded/bought?
3. Last TV show you watched?
4. First crush, if you had one?
5. If there was one thing you could say to one person from your past, who and what would it be?
6. First poster you had on your wall (if you had one)?
7. Describe your bedroom-decorated, posters, size, etc.
8. A film you think everyone should watch.
9. If you could be someone else for a day, who would it be?
10. Website you waste the most time on?
11. Think of your biggest secret. Would you rather keep it to yourself forever or share it with one other person who you knew you could count on to keep it between you?

Monday, 16 February 2015

Existential Crises and Wishing For Rain

"I came out of the womb spouting cynicism and wishing for rain."

Solitaire is a book that helps when you're angsty and feeling down and like you're stuck in the rain and can't walk inside to the warm.
I find myself constantly questioning my feelings and asking if I feel something because I'm a teenager, or if it's a "genuine feeling." Because I guess the message of society I often get is that teenagers don't have "genuine feelings." Teenagers have angsty hysterical feelings driven by their hormones. It kind of goes into the whole "Teenagers are not real. They are an inferior form of life" ethos that's perpetuated by a lot of media. But Solitaire's there for when you feel angsty.
Tori Spring is the world's most pessimistic teenager and probably one of the world's most Internet-obsessed teenagers. She has a pessimistic remark about everything. Tori can find the bad side in almost anything. She could easily have descended into some kind of terrible parody. But she doesn't, because she feels real. Because, yeah, teenagers are angsty. A lot of the time. But that doesn't mean those feelings aren't important or that teenagers aren't important human beings.
Tori Spring's school then basically gets taken over by an online community of anarchists who start pulling elaborate pranks, which all seem to have something to do with Tori. And there's a psychotically happy and excited guy called Michael Holden who thinks she should be intrigued by this. Add in a younger brother with severe and really realistic mental health issues, her childhood friend turning up and being hilariously awkward around her, and her obsession with blogging, along with pranks that get more and more dangerous (hello, fireworks going off in a crowd?) and you've got a recipe for chaos. Really great, readable chaos.
The thing is, while I love Solitaire for a whole ton of reasons, one of the primary ones is how it portrays teenage angst and feelings and depression. Because so often teenage angst is presented as the punchline to a joke (I mean, how many sitcoms don't have the Bratty Teenage Daughter (thank you, TVTropes) storm out at some stage or another, shrieking "You guys ruin my life?" And it's always oh chuckles, she has feelings.) I mean, I'm not saying that everything you feel as a teenager will seem as important throughout the rest of your life. Some of it will and some of it won't. But right at that moment, it feels important. Even if it's dismissed as "just a phase" by everyone around you, it feels important then and that's what makes it important. Your feelings are important. Don't dismiss them. It kind of puts me in mind of the recent release of Doll Hospital (go check it out if you haven't already.) We need a place to show our feelings so that we know we're not alone.
There were some parts of this book that were kind of achingly familiar. This scene seriously summed up some well-meaning adults I've known:
"You know, if you want to be happier, you have to try. You have to put in the effort. Your problem is that you don't try."
I do try. I have tried. I have tried for sixteen years.
Sometimes, I think some adults literally believe that teenagers are just in a phase and that one day, IF THEY'RE LUCKY, these teenagers will grow up to be EXACTLY LIKE THEM. But more than that, it sometimes seems as if they think that if they just tried hard enough, teenagers could skip all these silly little moods and angsty moments and that the only problem is that they're not trying hard enough. I'm basically having a Tori-moment myself here, and am currently sitting in front of my laptop kind of angsting away about a whole ton of things (I will probably open To Kill A Mockingbird later, to cheer myself up with a dose of the Atticus Finch mindset) but right now, that's how it feels. Maybe tomorrow, I'll think I was being unnecessarily whiny. But then maybe everyone has the right to be unnecessarily whiny at times. This blog post is turning out bizarrely narcissistic.
But another thing I loved was the fact that this wasn't a love story. In fact, that's the tagline. "This is not a love story." I love it when it's not a love story. Don't get me wrong, I love love stories. But I also love anti-love stories and platonic love stories and those kinds of love stories. Love stories that aren't always about being in love. It felt good that that happened. (At least, I think it happened.) That you can love someone without it being romantic love. That you can't rely on someone else to save you. That you have to sometimes save yourself. But that problems can be a hell of a lot more complicated than: It's just a phase you're just melodramatic it's teenage angst it's not real you'll get over him you'll forget about it in twenty years it won't matter you'll get over it over it over it.
I'm really tired of hearing that message and so I kind of loved that Solitaire didn't give it. Instead, we got some actual illustration of how hard being angsty and sad is and how teenagers don't just decide they don't like the world and so they're going to be angsty and sad just to make all the adults' lives harder. Duh. They feel sad. And their feelings aren't worth less because of their age.
Alice Oseman, who seems a pretty cool person, by the way, actually wrote in a message to her past self:
Teen girls don’t just want dark mysterious vampire boyfriends. They also want to stop feeling sad all of the time, and they want to understand themselves and they want to understand the world. Nobody writes books about teen girls having existential crises - but you can.
Adults are just as complicated as teenagers. Teenagers are just as clever as adults. We are all human beings.

It's OK to have an existential crisis. It's OK to regret it the next day. It's OK to be angsty. It's OK to be sad. It's OK to be sad if you're a teenager. It's OK to be sad if you're not.* It doesn't make your feelings less important if you're a teenager. It doesn't make you less of a person.

We are all human beings.

*Just a quick note: obviously, when I'm talking here, I'm not saying that serious issues like depression and mental health problems should be "just forgotten about." Far from it. I'm saying that it's OK to be sad as in being a teenager doesn't invalidate your feelings. If it's more than just sadness (as Tori's kind of seems to be, at times, though that might just be my interpretation) then yes, seek help from a doctor or professional and TALK TO SOMEONE ABOUT HOW YOU FEEL. Yes, that's important. Just because I don't want to sound like I'm trivializing any mental health problems! Be aware and all that stuff.

Monday, 9 February 2015

Cool Character: Roz Doyle

When I die, I want it to be on my 100th birthday, in my beach house on Maui...and I want my husband to be so upset, he has to drop out of college.-Roz Doyle.
You could say that Roz speaks her mind. 
To be fair, when I started watching Frasier for the first time (I was twelve and the reruns were on Comedy Central. While other kids watched Hannah Montana, I was watching two psychiatrists solve brotherly rivalry and carp about their father's chair), Roz wasn't my immediate favourite character. That would be Niles, who is still awesome and adorably nitpicky. He was one of my first crushes, weirdly. My other one was Sirius Black, so go figure.
But let's be fair, Roz is one of the most awesome female characters on TV and definitely one of my first girl crushes. Roz Doyle is Frasier's producer on his radio show, one of his best friends, and someone who's pretty open about her dating life. So she's brilliant, anyway.
As someone who basically felt out-of-kilter with everyone else a lot of the time when I was younger, I loved Roz's confidence-the way she doesn't see herself as inferior to anyone, despite Niles' occasional jibes at her.
Frasier: Niles, guess which thriving Seattle nightspot is closing its' doors?
Niles: Roz, you're moving.
(Roz licks Niles' first-edition book.)
Roz is herself-she's someone who doesn't hide who she is or try to be anything she isn't. She's open about the fact she dates a lot of guys, and doesn't feel she has to hide it or be ashamed of it. For young women today, young women who are often told they should be the shy, retiring ones in relationships, seeing someone like Roz who is respected in her career, popular, intelligent and is happy to take the first move in relationships, can be a huge confidence boost.
But Roz doesn't date "just anyone" and while she might be sensitive, some of the time, she doesn't let anyone get away with messing her around or taking things too far.
If you're not out here in ten seconds, I'm going to come in there and drag you out by your ankles!-Roz
The way Roz deals with her more annoying admirers-particularly Bulldog, who's kind of the walking stereotype of a guy who thinks every girl should want to sleep with him-is pretty badass. (Special mention for the time Bulldog gives her backside a pat and Roz slams her clipboard into his stomach.) But more than that, Roz isn't ashamed of who she is, and she isn't afraid of standing up for herself-she dates a lot of guys and she's fine with that. If anyone else has a problem with it, it's their problem. It's a pretty inspiring attitude, especially for young feminists-and also, Roz is one of the first female producers at KACL radio station, making her an independent, pioneering career woman who dates who she wants but doesn't need a long-term relationship to make her feel complete and happy. She doesn't care if she's not as well-to-do as Frasier and Niles:
Roz (to Niles): No, wait, I think I know exactly what it means. Offbeat as in cheap. Well, excuse me for not being rich enough to shop at the International House of Tight Ass like you and Maris the Heiress!
But there are times where Roz shows her vulnerability and that's still part of her strength. Part of being a strong character isn't NEVER showing emotion-it's knowing that showing emotion is part of being strong. And Roz isn't ashamed to turn to Frasier for help, especially when it involves her family:
Roz: Oh, you haven't met my perfect sister, Denise. I mean, I love her and everything but she's a total bitch.
Roz and Frasier's friendship is great-they're one of those platonic friendships that just works really well together. (SPOILERS OK, maybe not so platonic for one episode, but they agree to just be friends.) Roz and Frasier's banter is hilarious but they're always there for each other, particularly when Roz falls pregnant unexpectedly:
Frasier: But you're not by yourself, Roz....I'm here.
It's those kind of storylines that are some of my favourites for Roz. Her discovery that she's about to be a mother and her acceptance of her life changing just makes me enjoy her character even more, as does her support of Frasier when something inevitably goes wrong for him. Roz and Frasier's friendship kind of reminds me of my bond with some of my male friends, who let me whine about my problems to them and then calm me down.
But Roz still isn't shy about speaking her mind to anyone, particularly anyone who's judgemental-like Dr. Nora, a fundamentalist doctor who believes that sex before marriage is sinful and that everyone should live by her standards:
Frasier: I have just one question for you-
Roz (bursting in): What kind of vicious, judgemental, name-calling, machete-mouthed bitch are you?
You can't say Roz doesn't get her point across.
But yeah, Roz is awesome because of all the different sides to her personality. She's not afraid to be vulnerable but she can stand up for herself fine. She's got no issue with dating around a lot but she's not going to take any insults about it or let anyone take advantage. She's a career woman but she's a great mom to her little girl.
Roz is able to make the best of a lot of situations, even ones she's thrown into unexpectedly. In fact, her deadpan snarkership is great to alleviate the tension in the many Fawlty Towers like situations the Frasier cast are thrown into. One of the best illustrations of that ability is in the very first episode, where she talks Frasier out of a slump:
Roz:   Ever heard of Lupe Velez?
 Frasier:   Who?
Roz: Lupe Velez, the movie star in the '30s. Well, her career hit the skids, so she decided she'd make one final stab at immortality. She figured if she couldn't be remembered for her movies, she'd be remembered for the way she died. And all Lupe wanted was to be remembered. So, she plans this lavish suicide - flowers, candles, silk sheets, white satin gown, full hair and makeup, the works. She takes the overdose of pills, lays on the bed, and imagines how beautiful she's going to look on the front page of tomorrow's newspaper. Unfortunately, the pills don't sit well with the enchilada combo plate she sadly chose as her last meal. She stumbles to the bathroom, trips and goes head-first into the toilet, and that's how they found her.
 Frasier: Is there a reason you're telling me this story?
Roz: Yes. Even though things may not happen like we planned, they can work out anyway.
 Frasier:   Remind me again how it worked for Lupe, last seen with her head in the toilet.
 Roz:   All she wanted was to be remembered. Will you ever forget that story?
Yep, Roz can always talk you out of a slump. And interesting trivia: Lisa Kudrow (yes, THAT Lisa Kudrow) was originally meant to play Roz but the chemistry wasn't right. And so Peri Gilpin got the role-and was perfect. (I do not understand how more people do not know Peri Gilpin's name, she's awesome.) And then of course, Lisa Kudrow was on a tiny show called Friends.
So overall, Roz is pretty darn cool. And she's great at helping you remember that even though things may not happen like we planned, they can still work out anyway. (In some ways, that could be the whole message of Frasier, but we'll talk about that another time.)
And in the meantime, we've got to remember Roz for lines like these:
Roz: Well, whatever your problems are, you'll laugh at them when you hear what I've been through. I had a date tonight. I got halfway down my driveway when he called me on my car phone and cancelled. I was too humiliated to go back in the house and face the sitter, so - don't ask me why - I went to the zoo. You really want to feel good about yourself? Put on your best outfit and walk through the monkey house on a Saturday night. And be sure and stop by and see Remo the baboon, who knows all kinds of ways to have fun without a date. Feeling better about your problem?
Simon: Roz, you little snitch. You know, I'm having serious doubts about whether or not you're going to be the future mother of my children.
Roz: Somewhere out there, the future mother of your children just lifted her head from a puddle of drool.
Roz: The whole point of gossip is to talk behind the person's back, not in front of them. I didn't realise you were unclear on this concept!
Frasier: You ever run into a guy like Marco?
Roz: Oh, they're all Marcos. You can't swing a cat without hitting a Marco.
Frasier: Come on. I mean, if that were so, then no one would be having a relationship.
Roz: Well, I'm not. My sister's not. None of my friends are. I've seen the future and it's name is Marco!
Roz: Nothing worse than waking up naked with a bunch of cops standing around. I've been there..
And if you still weren't clear she's great, here's Roz dressed up as her hero:

Yep, Roz dressed up as Wonder Woman for a party. And did she care what anyone said? No. OK, she did, but then she explained why Wonder Woman's her hero and just proved herself great all over again. And continued to wear the costume, regardless of what anyone else thought.
Just in case you needed any other reason to think she's brilliant.

Thursday, 5 February 2015

Go Forth The Sequel? Harper Lee, Future and Past, and Four Am Thoughts

So Harper Lee's releasing another book. After 55 years.
At first, I was kind of jumping up and down and squealing. It's going to be prequel. A second book but a prequel. (Is it still a prequel if it was written first but set later? Or is it a sequel? A pre-sequel?)
Now, To Kill A Mockingbird is on the list of Books I Like To Take Everywhere With Me (and my dad always reminds me of Atticus, which is awesome for me.) And Scout was one of the kid characters I wanted to be when I read it. (I read it when I was nine and sick and coughing, and my dad brought it home from the library for me. I finished it in two days.) I even had a Scout haircut at the time I read it, though that was more of a coincidence. (My hair was thicker than custard at the time, and so I had to lose my pigtails for a couple of years, just because the brush kept getting stuck in the tangles.)
And so I am really, really looking forward to this book but I guess I'm kind of nervous about it too. And whether this is because To Kill A Mockingbird is great because it stands alone or just because I've always seen it as a book that stands alone, I don't know. Maybe it's the whole, "if it isn't broken, don't fix it" thing. Or maybe it's just the idea of there finally being a future for the kids who seemed to exist in a period of suspended time, in Depression-era Alabama.
Maybe it's just four am thoughts. But, I don't know. Is it always good to see what happened next to characters? Or is it sometimes easier to just cling onto the past, to keep voices and people and stories, the way they'll always be behind your eyes, in the raging quiet of your mind?

Monday, 2 February 2015

Maybe I'm Just Crazy For You, Baby: Cool Band-Best Coast

I could start this with the words "Best Coast is the best" but then I wouldn't because that would be the most ridiculous attempt at a pun that I've ever written. (And that would beat both of my grandfathers, who continuously vie for the title of Worst Pun-Finder Ever.)

I've got to thank Chloe Grace Moretz for a load of stuff, including being an amazing actress and introducing me to Kickass (because seriously, she was like a little Natalie Portman in that) but also for introducing me to Best Coast, by appearing in this music video.

Hope I haven't messed up the quality by embedding that.

And yeah, that was Shailene Woodley and Miranda Cosgrove in there. (And Tyler Posey, who's apparently in Teen Wolf, which I haven't seen.) Also, I have no idea how I missed that it was directed by Drew Barrymore the first time around who I've idolized since I first saw ET and wanted to have my hair in pigtails like Gertie.

Anyway, I'm going to have to go on about the video another time and I will, because I actually watched it ten times on a loop the first time I saw it. (I'm a sucker for music videos that tell stories. If you've got any other good lil music video narratives, hit me up in the comments.)

But that's what introduced me to Best Coast.

Best Coast's like being at the end of a summer day, watching the sunset, thinking about someone you love and listening to songs that make you smile and ache at the same time, because you're reaching for something that's not quite there. There's this weird longing in the chords that feels like some girl sitting at the top of a beach in the summer, scribbling a song on a notepad in the sunset.

Just listen to "Our Deal." It's the first song by Best Coast that I ever heard and it's still one of my absolute favourites. Something about it just feels kind of like someone telling you a secret over the phone, and you listen and just feel sad because you know you can't do anything to change the situation. Taylor Swift once said that she sees her concerts as like a big sleepover where she's telling her fans stories and I kind of get a similar feeling from Best Coast and Bethany Cosentino-like she's your friend, telling you a story with her words and her guitar. Accompanied by Bobb Bruno's fellow awesome guitar skills.

"And I feel crazy, cos I didn't say anything
I wish you would tell me how you really feel
But you'll never tell me, 'cos that's not our deal..."

I kind of became a full-on Best Coast convert when I heard the song "Boyfriend." I don't know if this is because I am technically a teenager and I always wonder if whatever I feel is something that is just typical teenage angst or if it is-and this is pretty indicative of the poor treatment teenager's feelings get, sometimes, I think-more "valid." I think that sometimes teenagers' feelings are treated as if they're a bit less than other people's-it's something they'll "get over" and so teenagers just feel even lower because not only are their feelings cripplingly difficult to deal with at times, they then have the sensation that everyone feels like they're getting worked up over nothing, anyway-when it's not nothing. But "Boyfriend" kind of conveyed the feeling that it's OK to feel like this and it's not stupid or infantile or anything else. Your feelings are what they are and that's great.

And Boyfriend's just that feeling of this kind of aching sunshine in your chest when you see someone and you want to be with them but you can't or you can't yet and so every time you see them you're smiling but it hurts at the same time and you're kind of the feeling equivalent of those weird little half-happy, half-sad drama masks. Your heart's being yanked up one way and right down another.

I wish he was my boyfriend
I wish he was my boyfriend
I'd love him 'til the very end
But instead he is just a friend
I wish he was my boyfriend
There's nothing worse than sitting on the lawn when I am home
And waiting waiting waiting waiting waiting by the phone
I hope that he's at home waiting by his phone
I wonder if he knows that I want him

They're the songs that pulled me into Best Coast but their songs kind of sneak up on you like a secret when you're least expecting it. They're like a little secret thought playing away at the back of your mind that you don't even realise you've been paying attention to until suddenly they're right there in front of your eyes and you realise how awesome whatever song you're listening to is.

Right now, I'm listening to "When the Sun Don't Shine" and it just snuck up on me how much I love the song. It doesn't smack you between the eyes, it just pokes your brain gently and you realise you're paying attention.

I just wanna tell you that I always loved you
I just wanna tell you that I always loved you
I just wanna tell you that I always miss you
I just wanna tell you that I always miss you
When the sun don't shine, you are mine...

I've only got their first album "Crazy For You" on my ipod so far because then my ipod committed the ultimate betrayal and GOT FULL UP. I was shocked too. I yelled at the screen for about ten minutes. Luckily, I'm getting a new one this week and the first album I'm downloading is "The Only Place." (And some Tori Amos.) And I just must tell the story of the person whose name shall not be mentioned who suggested I just DELETE some songs and I was just "Can you take back your musical sacrilege, there?"

But Best Coast's lyrics are so simple and honest that they just kind of fit in your mind. They can paint a scene or a story without jamming in a load of words. They make you feel things.

We were born with sun in our teeth and in our hair

That's just become one of my favourite lines ever, to be honest. "The Only Place" always reminds me of LA, which is where I want to live one day (and where I'm hoping and praying that I'll get to visit this year, oh, please, please, please.) And the lyrics just make everything universal and personal at once, like everyone's felt this in the world and at the same time, it's something special and private and just yours. Like "How They Want Me To Be." But I don't want to be how they want me to be, I don't want to be how they want me to be, is what I play over and over in my head whenever it feels like someone's trying to bend my limbs and force me back into a little doll-shaped box of their choosing.

I tell her I don't want to talk
But she doesn't stop, she's just wondering
I don't wanna be how they want me to be, I don't wanna be how they want me to be
I don't wanna be how they want me to be, I don't wanna be how they want me to be
I wanted you, I wanted you, I wanted you, I wanted you,

I'm actually planning to do a Cool Song post on that one tomorrow. (Or the next day. I hate schoolwork but it exists and it exists to rob me of important things. And then I feel guilty for whining about it.)

So, Best Coast is pretty much everything cool and quirky and there for getting you through life. And Bethany and Bobb are awesome and everything great and I have to see them live one day. (Someone listed Bethany as one of the top ten people they'd love to hang out with and I couldn't agree more.)

So, I'll leave you with some lyrics from one of their best ever songs, Crazy For You, that does what they do best-sum up how emotions can beat each other up in your ribs and drive you crazy in the best possible way, with strings of words that know how you feel and great guitar chords.

I can't do anything without you, can't do anything with you
You drive me crazy but I love you, you make me lazy but I love you
Want to hit you but then I'd kiss you, want to kill you but then I'd miss you
You drive me crazy but I love you, you make me lazy but I love you

Maybe I'm just crazy, maybe I'm just crazy
Maybe I'm just crazy, crazy for you, baby...

And that's Best Coast. Sometimes, you'll be screaming inside and quietly crazy with everything, and that's just fine.